Friday, March 19, 2010

Been listening to more Great Lake Swimmers recently. It's very nice, melancholy music – it suits me. I like the hauntingly poetic and beautiful things in life. I think that that preference is sometimes mistaken for adolescent angst or some other stupid, stereotyped outlook. . . it's not that at all.

I feel like discussing my life on a grander scale. I've always had some idea of what I wanted to do with my life. It's not really all that hard, is it? Life boils down into simple choices, and the details fall into place in accordance with your personality. But I wonder, can a person really know what is going to make them happy? If that were true, it seems there'd be more happy people. I think perhaps there's an element of blind luck to it. And, of course, people are dynamic – their identities and personalities are malleable. I'm sure that that has something to do with happiness crises. However it happens, I hope I don't end up like that. I want to study something I'll always be interested in. I want to marry someone whom I'd still love decades later, and who'd still love me back. I want to live somewhere I will always be happy to come home to. I'm not worried that I won't have these things. . . more just. . . slightly, slightly concerned.

2 comments:

  1. Oh, people know what they want. You ask a person and they can tell you exactly what they want...
    Its just, most people set their aim up so high, they never acheive it...
    Or sometimes it wasnt meant to work out..

    People are lazy nowadays..
    If you want something, really want something, if you try hard enough, you can get it..

    People who are sucessful are people like you...

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  2. oh listen to you, philosophical little girl... i suppose you're right... i just hope i always care about achieving things that make me happy... who knows, perhaps i'll end up lazy or confused or hopeless... then i might not care enough...

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